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I'm sorry but I really didn't want to go graduationg with you. I knew tt you only had us to depend on and I really wanted to help but I don't know how to. Your reliance is getting on my bundles of neurones. I'm sorry but to ignore you. I know tt you won't read this post so it doesn't matter whether or not it's here and you won't even know who you are. But I just can't stand it and even though some ppl understand. I still don't understadn myself. But you really need to learn how to be INDEPENDENT. I know I'm mean but this is my only way to do it in such a way tt you wouldn't know and at the same time less saddening for you. When will you realise the fact tt we just simplay can't get along. Don't you have your own grp of friends. It may seem like as if I'm being over-sensitive but I just can't help it. Everyone's helping me to lie and I'm sorry for this. I really am. When whould you realise tt you are in a different world. I'm sorry but I don't wish to see you again. I really hope tt the team can do well together but I'm not too sure if I can tell myself to. I may attend any of the team occasion because you are there. You even make me not feel like playing Floorball anymore because I know tt if I continue my life in Floorball, I'm sure to see you again and I don't wish tt tt would happen. Am I being mean. I don't know this is just how I feel. It's irritating me and I've got no one else to tell but this freaking machine standing right in front of me. How pathetic can I get. I don't know if this choice is right but I'm a stubborn person and will not listen anyone else other than myself when my mind is made. Though my team has tried to convince me, I just can't let it go. Is it real bad to treat you like tt but I think tt drifting away is the best solution because time is the best medicine I suppose. I think nobody is gonna read this paragraph because it's so long and I shan't continue.

Saw Amanda when we reached and guess what she was in. Shirt and Shorts. How power can she get. Charmaine even better. So shinny like going to club or what. This is the second time I saw Steph in a skirt and tt better not be the last time. I hope to see her in skirt again because she is pretty.

I hate it. I can't believe tt throughout the whole lunch I sat at the same table as Xinni and Dinie tt bunch of b******. I'm sorry but I just can't stand it. I was in a bad mood and I guess they knew it. Tt STUPID dinie still thought tt I was talking abt her when I was whispering to Nanda. If you think tt you are tt worthy of for me to bitch abt then go ahead. I don't care abt you HYPOCRITE. I just don't understand why such a person can ever exist and have friends. I bet her friends are just as hypocritical as her. This kind of a person can NEVER in her life find a true friend. I'm glad I've found one. Not this machine though. I love her and I suppose we'll accompany each other till death though I'll be in poly and she JC. I know she doesn't read my blog either but I just love her.

Juniors I'm so disappionted in you all. No video for my grad la, So sad can. I shall blog some other day. Gonna talk to my best friend. Have not talked to her for a long long time.

Went down to Nanda's house with Renée to fetch Nanda from her house, because she was lazy to get out of her house while others went to prepare.

Blind folded Nanda from her house till Mountbatten CC. It was funny because she didn't know where were going and look at what I did to her face when we were in the cab without her knowing.

The kids there sang birthday song for Nanda and she was so touched tt she burst into tears. We were all happy tt she liked the surprise. Then we played game with the kids there. Karlton and his sister Chermaine are so cute so are Joseph and Jacqueline. I like them alot. They are so fun to play with. Ahmad too. He's very adorable.

Went to the kallang hawker to eat. There are so many nice food there. How come I never realise though I go there every Saturday to visit my Ah ma every Saturday last time.

Then we took bus 16 to Cine. The guy who sat beside played along with us too. He lied to Nanda together with us since Nanda doesn't know where he is going. Nanda, we were going to watch a NC16 movie because you are officially SIXTEEN.

We walked arnd and there was this tag pinned on Nanda saying,

Many ppl wished her. A group of teenage Caucasians actually even sang Birthday song for her. There were also ppl starring at like as if we were aliens. I'm happy though. Anw, the photo thing is not working shall upload the photos some other time.

I'll upload the videos we took as well.

know what. Out of 7 days in this week. I'll be going out with Renée and Pearls for six days.
I'm so happy. I'm gonna get the topshop bag.
Went with Nanda, Renée, Xuan and WY to Bugis. Then Sam, Pearls and Charlotte joined us later at a later time.
We met this two tenants. They were so funny. Like nothing better to do then just go there rent a shop and play one.
I showed one of this girl my dress and she said,"it's a dorothy bloddy perkins" it was funny in a way. They are very friendly and just sit there helped ourselves with almost everything. Now I know I can't work in any shop tt sells shirts because I can't put them properly.

I'm not gonna get the starbucks job but I'm gonna work in some telemarketing place.
I'll work hard for $10 an hours.

Went for trng yesterday and I was super duper funny. I think Sonia Teo and Jamie Chong is super funny with the English lessons and the Stretching lesson. The Sonia kept banging Jamie. Everyone was just laughing at their conversation.
Ben, you should be glad tt I gave you tatoo lor. Some ppl want also don't have ar. You should feel fortunate. Ben, STOP making funny noises, all sorts of sound effects and it was because of your sound effects tt I fell. I just can't help it but to laugh. In the end I can't stand properly and fell.
Pearls: IT'S NOT MY DAILY ROUTINE!!!

ok. The last time I blog was exactly one week ago. When I wasn't happy because there was O levels. Now, I'm happy and Gay.

16th Nov 2006, Thursday.

Suppose to meet Xuan to go Vivo to collect some movie tickets. But in the end, she told me tt she had to go her Grandma house don't know do what. I'm so glad I could find my cousin to go there with me. It's super last min. I seriously think tt my whole life is just abt waiting for ppl. First, I waited for Xuan so tt she could pass me the tabs to collect the tickets. After tt, I was waiting for my cousin to reach Eunos from her house. Waited for so long. We went to eat at Banquet. Both of us ate Chicken Rice. Then went to Vivo mart to get some don't know what. Then went to collect the tickets. After collecting the tickets, my cousin and I watched "The Grudge 2". I think it's quite a good show because it requires alot of thinking which is the kinda movie tt I like.

Saw Amelia and Vanessa there. Somehow, we went separate ways but we still met at Carls jr. in the end. Sat together and ate. Talked and somehow, ZiYing was so quiet. Nvm. We went home after tt. Didn't want to go home so went over to her house and stay over instead.

Used the computer then called YiWen because I didn't know how to explain to her online. In the end, we talked till 0345. Then, her phone batt went flat so I went to sleep.

Woke up only at 12. Uncle cooking is nice. Mum came to fetch me and I stoned at home.

18th Nov 2006, Saturday.

Went with Xuan, Pearls and Nanda to Cathay. Xuan and I went for the StarBucks interview. Hopefully I'll get a job there. I really really want it. ohh, there's this place called wood would. Nice place with nice cards. I'm going there again man though it's kinda expensive.
Nanda and I reached the place first, and while waiting. We were commenting on every grp of ppl who walk pass us. It was super funny. Now, I know tt Nanda wants big breast because she wants the horizontal stripe bikini tt will make her breast look bigger.

19th Nov 2006, Sunday.

Couldn't get to go to 1st service because I overslept so went to the third one instead. It was a very good sermon. I love it. I'm so happy for Pearls. She's opening up to God. Thank You Lord.

There is this guy called Jonathan and he's so smart. He knows how to explain to me each and every question tt I don't know. So smart. It's without a doubt abt him being in the intergrated programme.

Ohh no, I know NOBODY in the camp grp. Okay, maybe not because I know Kah Wai. But not like as if I'm very close to him right.

Went to Vivo yesterday but there isn't any thing tt I can buy. Nth much happened.

Went to Island Creamery and Ikea. Met this girl(11yrs old) and her younger brother(turning one on some day of December). Kinda made friends with them. She's very pretty. The Brother is so cure. I'm gonna marry some Phillipino one day. The children come out all very pretty one.

Was it meant to be smth fun or you just don't want to let me know?
Did you meant well because I had to study or you just didn't want me to go?
Do you even care abt how I'll feel or izzit that I just don't feel it?
There are thousands and one question in my mind wanting to ask you but somehow, I don't want to know the answers. I know I'm contradicting, but I'll never be but like that again.
Don't worry, I'll never pester anyone anymore.
Time and time again I'm disappointed. I don't wanna get hurt anymore and I'll not depend on anyone, bother abt any other thing but study hard for my last two papers.
I've learnt that crying doesn't help, I'll never help. At the very most, I'll be comforted by the fact that I care because I bothered to cry.
I don't know if it meant the way I thought. I'll not bother anymore.
I'll just pray hard abt it and hope that I'll get an answer from someone.
For the very least, I'm not as hurt as last time. I woke up earlier. Not as stupid like last time.
经一事长一志。

I've always hated school life because I've got to wake up early in the morning just to go to school and to study. But, life has been so empty since study break has started. I know that I'll never be able to sit at the basketball court to listen to the annoucements, stand there and sing both the National Anthem and School Song ever again. I really Love the school song:
Forward Katong Covent,
Make our future bright,
To achieve our aims
Bravely we will fight.
Guide us in our labours
To the Lord we pray,
In wisdom, strength and courage
Growing day by day

Solidly united,
by our motto sound
Simple in virtue
Strong
in duty bound

In duty to our country
Let us steadfast be,
Serving it with cheerfulness
And with loyalty.
Let us ever noble be,
In thought and word and deed,
Strving to our utmost
Always to succeed(WONDERFUL, isn't it)

Okay anw, I'm gonna RUN everyday. As in twice a day. Morning from my house to ECP. Evening, in Bedok stadium. I have to and I'm gonna to. Maybe might go for School Trng and join Charlotte and Sam. But I still can't decide whether or not to give Floorball up. I'm still considering, so even if I go for trng, it's just to see if I still have the ocnfidence to play Floorball.
Some song that we sang today.

I love You(x9)
and my heart will follow wholly after you.
lovely are your dwelling places, thirsty i come after you
now im yours and you are mine, and from my heart a song will rise,
Don't know why but everytime I hear it I'll just start crying and crying.

Anw, I need to study me Geog paper 1. How? My mapwork sucks.
Ohh no. What if I fail my O's I don't know what to do.
Stop talking abt the unhappy things.
I think that I gossip more and more. Tsk, as in, I don't know if it's gossiping, but the thing is that whatever that I said was true. So is that considered gossiping. I'm SORRY if I've brought to anybody any inconvinence. But I just can't keep these to myself because whatever that you have done is just so hurtful to your friends and you never did realise or izzit that you just don't bother to see. It's not just one friend but many friends. I know that you're trying so hard to hook guys up and to gain favourtism from ppl who has authority but it's NO USE.
You think ppl can't see how desperate you are. Sorry but you just just so dumb and make it so obvious that you are desperate. It's not only me who thinks so but also your own CLOSE friend and my friends. Sorry but you just can't bootlick for nuts and they are all unsuccessful. In turn, you make ppl dislike, loathe you. It'lll only make ppl hate you to the very marrow of one's bones.
okay, it may be a little too exaggerated but what you do. There is a borderline, a limit. Stop it.

I think I'm too agitated.
NVM.
LOVE HIM AND LEARN FROM HIM AND ALL WILL BE FINE.
LOVE EVERYONE.

I hate O levels. It's the killer of most ppl other than those who likes to study or do not have a life. I shall give you an example, HO KOK WEN YING.
She's totally crazy. She studies EVERYDAY, DAY AND NIGHT. The only thing she does is to Study, Sleep and Eat. She's crazy and doesn't have a life.
I miss playing Floorball but I don't think I'm gonna continue life with Floorball anymore. Like how Jie Jie felt, I'm feeling it. I never understood her but now I know. I know I'll miss my Floorball life but I don't know if I should continue or to give up and to concentrate on my Poly life next time.
I seriousl have got no idea. If I really can get in NP, Chinese Studies, I really don't know. It's like crazy. I mean like, BOTH are my interests, but, being a DJ will be both my career and hobby while Floorball is just like that. Not like as if I'm that good at Floorball or what. I'll just be more than happy to see some of my teammates playing Floorball still.
I know I'm contradicting but I have got no idea when it comes to this topic.

Anw, O levels is fine. For the last three paper that I took, the only paper that I found difficult was Chinese. Like what Berlyn told me, those ppl who have a better Chinese Foundation found the paper difficult but those with C5,6 for the last time thought that the paper was easy. How IRONIC!!!

I'm like goging crazy and that I've got paper everyday the next week and it's not like MCQ kind, ALL theory la. BIAN TAI.

My O's ends on the 20th NOv.

FOR ONE FULL WEEK I'M GONNA SHOP FOR GRAD DRESS, which is on the 27th Nov.
On the 28th Nov. I'm gonna look for Job.
From 29th Nov.-2nd Dec. will be Np and TP orientation.
3rd is Yuan Ting's birthday.
May from the 4th to 6th I'll have different grps of ppl coming to my house to play Mahjong,(Teammates, Juniors and Friends), each a day I guess.
7th is a secret party of Nanda's
From the 8th to 12th is camp.
13th is also Nanda's secret party.
14th and 15th, some stuff on.
16th and 17th, FREE.(Hurry Book Me now before it's no longer available)
18th is another Party.
19th-21th,FREE (Call 9765**** for booking)
22nd is Nanda's party AGAIN.
Christmas at Katong last for a few days so I'm not too sure when. But I know that I'll be going to HK with Nisa and friends for arnd 4-6 days but the dates are not confirmed yet)

First time in my life that my December and November is so packed.
It's totally crazy.
Should I work for Starbucks, Royal Sporting House, Levi's, some restaurant or in office. 因该选哪一个呢？

I shall guest blog for WNX since it's so dead(: Haha, I'm so nice because I changed her skins and relinked some people for her. Haaaa, I have no idea what to blog about. Oh ya, got back the results and I'm so not contented because I too don't know why she could get into 3/5 you know, I KNOW NANXIN will definitely agree right. I really really think Sandra should get into 3/5 you knowww. Nanxin, I hope you know who I'm talking about yeahhh. Nanxin is having her O levels and she has no time to blog. Haha, but I doubt anyone reads her blog either. HAHA. I shall stop here then(:

Nanxin, so do you like your skin? HAAAA.